So I am free to ponder anew that perennial question, “What zu wan’ be?”
Walking out the door of a building I’d entered every day all those years, I was immediately aware that I was also walking through a door into something new. My first, most immediate hope was that the books, retreats, workshops, events, etc. that are posted on this site will be a large part of that something new for I will have much more time and energy to give to them. Even though, I must acknowledge that this is not totally mine to decide but is in the hands of a faithful God who has brought me this far for a reason, and whose reasons are often mysterious.
They are also wondrous. “For I know the plans I have for you says the Lord, plans for your welfare, not for woe, plans to give you a future full of hope.” This was the message sent me the following day by my daughter and son-in-law as a reminder of God’s purpose in my life. I am grateful to them and to many people who have sent me their support and prayers. The best expression I can give of my gratitude is to step out in faith in this becoming process.
I once went on a Sabbath to Temple de Hirsch Sinai and was touched by the beauty and richness of the experience. I ended up copying these words onto a small scrap of paper from my purse. I did not know then how right they would sound these several months later:
God disturbs us toward our destiny by hard events and by freedom’s now urgent voice which explodes and confirms who we are.
We don’t like leaving but God loves becoming